| smoked. |
[Dec. 18th, 2007|08:19 pm] |
also do to ben breaking up with me i smoked my very first and last cigarette of my life that night.
I still hate cigarettes, i just wanted to get it over with. |
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| the beginning. |
[Dec. 18th, 2007|08:13 pm] |
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now is the beginning of yet another chapter in my life of being single and probably celibate, like i usually end up.
Ben broke up with me this last weekend, so sorry if i seem a bit down here in california. I know everything will be okay, it's never the end of the world, just a struggle.
this term was extremely hard for me emotionally but hopefully the rest of the school year will be good and productive. |
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| I am. |
[Nov. 24th, 2007|12:29 am] |
I am in love.
It found me
it fooled me
it laughed at me
it abandoned me
it lied to me
it hurt me
it terrified me
it soothed me
it surprised me
it healed me
it inspired me
it encompassed me
I am in it.
...and that is all that matters in this process we call life. |
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| im feeling 'fine.' |
[Nov. 1st, 2007|04:03 pm] |
what do you hope to find when your faith is failing?
i wonder at moments what to do.
do i open myself up more even though i've been burned now and the scars haven't fully healed, instead they opened up sores that have always been there, maybe for generations.
sorrow can ruin a lifetime.
pain can take over the heart.
i must not allow this to happen or else i will only wander around with no goals, nothing accomplished, no understanding of the world. |
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| truth. |
[Aug. 30th, 2007|12:34 pm] |
things are really hard right now.
i guess that's what happens. |
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| culture shock. |
[Aug. 30th, 2007|12:33 pm] |
culture shock.
dear america i have a few questions:
why do you drive such big cars?
why is transit such a lonely task?
why don't you know who Herman Düne is?
why isn't your public transportation more efficient?
why doesn't the word 'artist' mean anything to you?
why is there always traffic on the roads?
why don't you know who your neighbors are?
why are guns so accessible?
why isn't the government afraid of the people?
why aren't there more dielects from town to town?
why is cereal so expensive?
why do the shops close so early except for safeway?
why don't you walk more often?
sincerely,
sierra stinson |
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| don't know. |
[Aug. 20th, 2007|10:59 am] |
i don't know if open relationships are completely possible. but i've been trying to have one for over a year now and it's getting complicated. i thought if you keep communication open and understand one another then all would be good but then there comes the location thing. we've always had long distance relationship and when i left the country that was a big deal. now im in love with two individuals and can't be with either of them. one is in glasgow, the other moving to eastern washington. one is an 8 hour drive away, the other is a 10 hour flight away and i've been basically celabate for the past year and these relationships are basically friendships with more 'love' but it's all strange and im going to stop this ramble for a moment to think about it.
im looking forward to seattle and studios and creating. |
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| been a while. |
[Aug. 18th, 2007|10:19 am] |
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im a returning to this thing, maybe, hopefully, we will see. |
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| so. |
[Sep. 4th, 2006|06:27 pm] |
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Im not dead. |
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| (no subject) |
[May. 9th, 2006|07:34 am] |
im in california.
its beautiful.
im riding my bike around.
i miss seattle.
im looking forward to europe.
i can't wait to see ben. |
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| thoughts. |
[Apr. 9th, 2006|10:34 pm] |
let it sink below me and shine my toes.
i wonder about the mountains that surround us
why we don't go climb them more often.
i met an owl the other night.
she told me to leave the place im in
and find another place to be me.
that maybe all the lies I was raised with
will turn into rocks in a river and
the water will wash them clean
reshape them into another truth.
our history will always be the same.
but the future will always be unknown.
you said that it was nonsense.
then that's what my life will become. |
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| time holds us back. |
[Mar. 27th, 2006|10:03 pm] |
i hear you in my dreams.
we are taken out to sea. |
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| no identity. |
[Mar. 21st, 2006|01:58 pm] |
So having you shit stolen/lost just sucks.
after yesterday finding out that my wallet was gone. I had to go to the DMV to get my first washington state license and after waiting for over two hours and passing my test they said that I would have to have proof of my california license and send by mail something to the california DMV for them to send to me...so for the next week I get to drive around without a license. i also had to cancel my credit/debit card and am going to live off of five dollars for the next week until my new one arrives.
whoever has my wallet will be happy to have it, it was hand made by janie angell and within it holds some cash, an REI card, seattle public library card, my horrible california state license, my canceled debit/credit card, a fortune, and a few bread tags. |
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| children are my favorite people in the world. |
[Mar. 19th, 2006|08:04 pm] |
Actual conversation between two kindergartners:
Ava: Cole, do you have a crush on me?
Cole: Yup. I have a lot of crushes on you.
Ava: Oh no. Really? How many crushes do you have on me?
Cole: Infinity. I took all of the other crushes that I had on the other girls and put them on you, too so it is actually more than infinity. I will have crushes on you to last my whole life.
Ava: What about Avery or Tori? Don't you have crushes on them, too?
Cole: Nope. Just you, Ava. I have all of my crushes on you because you are my favorite.
Ava: Well, you can't kiss me on the face. But I might let you kiss my hand if you'll be my best friend.
Cole: I don't want to kiss you yet. I just want to be your best friend forever.
Xenia: Good. Kissing is gross and I am sitting between you so keep apart so I don't get sick. |
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